Training Day 94 - The Silly Things I Do

Language: Nothing really spectacular today... Except for speaking practice with my new mentor. What a trip. It was, again, one of the more intense and enjoyable study sessions I've had. I can tell that she really cares about her students and wants us to do well. Besides the corrections she made she also commented how during one of my monologues she could really see that I was thinking in the target language instead of translating. It's encouraging for me to hear that.

Fitness: So I tried something new for PT today. We drove down to the fitness center, PTed there, showered, and came back... We had a better PT sessions and showers that actually worked in a decent amount of time. I just need to hash out the details over the coming days. In addition, one of my fire team members told me tonight how his abs still hurt from the workout we did. I take a measure of pride in that.

Apartment: The landlord never called. I called him. Then his brother told me that the apartment had been rented out. Thank you so much for telling me like you promised to.... So now I am back on the prowl having wasted a chunk of time and a bit of cash.

Personal: I did something today that most of the people who read this blog will probably decry as an act of folly. They are aware of the whole saga I've been going through lately and probably thought I was making real ground in dropping ballast and moving on with my life. The other day the person in question and myself spoke very briefly and ended it with her saying she wouldn't talk to me anymore. I didn't argue.

Then I checked her site on a whim and found that she felt abandoned by one of the two people she never thought would. Ugh. I am getting on with my life and that involves distancing myself from people who use me and/or hurt me... But, at the same time, I can't abandon people. It's not what I do. I can't even turn away from those perfect strangers you find on the street... the ones with a legitimate need... much less someone I know.

So I replied trying to establish that she was the one who closed the door between us, not me, and that I wouldn't lock it. However, I also tried to establish where I was coming from and what had been going on. I don't know. Maybe her feelings are legitimate. Maybe this is all a ploy to open me back up for more exploitation...

But I did say that I would be there and I don't go back on my promises.

I am still moving forward with my life. It my life and I will live it how I want to live it. Then it's up to other people to determine if they want to be a part of it.