Feedback Loop

Today has been really odd... It started off awesome. I PTed with my fireteam, went to the gym, had a good weight lifting session, drank my tasty shake took a nice hot shower, went to the sauna, took a really refreshing cold sauna, and made it to class with a bit of time to spare and feeling really good. My speaking practice went well and I spent the rest of the day rocking out studying vocab. It was really sticking too.

The Lady and I chatted a bit today... and now she's feeling all sorts of confused on account of her ex. He, apparently, is really confused too. This leaves me to, once again, fill the role of anchor. She even commented on it too. On how I'm the only steady, reliable thing in the whole equation. Now, consciously I determined that there's nothing for me to do in this situation but support her in whatever she does. Therefore, I shouldn't worry. Why worry about what you can't change anyways?

Unfortunately, my subconsciousness didn't want to listen to my consciousness and started up some sort of wierd stress feedback loop. Shortly after I got off the phone with M'Lady I suddenly felt old and tired. I tried going to dinner with the Hooah but only got more agitated. It lasted through study hall but I managed to shake it off by blaring my music really loud and singing along on the way home. Heh... It reminded me of something my teacher said when we were prepping for a song in class. She was complimenting and thanking everyone for their hard work and good singing then she got to me and said that, "You tried so hard."

Heh.

Anyways... Test tomorrow. I feel decent. And tomorrow is a new day. One thing I've definitely learned as of late is just how much can happen in one day so we'll see what happens.