Life is Weird

Pretty much sums it up...

Kicked off this morning with a fartlek run and lifting weights. The fartlek rocked as I smoked my fire team and wasn't even that winded. Today was my legs and shoulders day so by the time I was done my legs were done too. Sitting on any surface insufficiently padded hurts.

I had my speaking test today, pounded a ton of vocab, then had speaking practice. I think I did alright on the speaking test. The vocab is really sticking. I learned a lot in speaking practice. All said, not a bad day for language learning.

Then I went and dropped my car off this afternoon to get it all fixed and ready for the 3000 or so miles I'm going to add to it starting next weekend. I didn't realize just how much little stuff was wrong with it until I started listing it off for the mechanic. Poor guy.

M'Lady was the one who picked me up from the autoport and brought me to my apartment. Then we hung out this evening. Earlier this morning she was all smiles and said she had realized something today and would share with me later... So she did. She's decided to take a few years to take care of herself, finish up grad school, and rediscover her passion for life. She says it's been waning as her priorities and reasons for doing things have shifted away from what she truly wants. She also said that, coincidentally, the people that she is interested in a future with get out of the military about the same time she's due to graduate. And she says that at the end of all this the people who are important, who are good friends, and who she can trust will still be there.

This is the weird part... I agree with all of that. The more I thought about it, the more it made sense. There was an initial few minutes of dislike for the scenario as it means I'm denied what I desire but I quickly started recounting the positives to this.

She wants to get to know people... She wants that friendship to be there before having an exclusive relationship. That's what a relationship should be based off of. You're good friends first and then you add that little bit extra. Establishing that first is a good thing

Time tests things... All relationships go through that test. Most fail. Getting that test out of the way while you are friends helps determine who is quality and who isn't. It also lets you know what you're really getting into.

Also, the longer you are denied something the more you want it... It's my own fault for awakening that desire of mine. Now I get to watch it simmer as time goes on. One of these days, I'll actually get to sate that desire of mine and it will live up to the hype. And it'll be special.

She is also taking action on her own to get her life in order... I swear, the more I talk with her the more impressed I am. She's strong enough to take care of herself and intends on making sure she is self-sufficient. I agree. A relationship isn't about two incomplete people trying to compensate for the other. It's about two good people who are better together.

Heh. We talk like we're going to know each other for a very long time... I hope so. She was talking about my visiting her whenever I come home as my dad wants to move near where her parents are. Then there was talk of just going places when I take leave.

While we were talking today she started talking about some of her professors from college. They taught anthropology. Suddenly she turned to me and said, "You would like anthropology." So we started discussing why... And I think she may be right. Cultural anthropology. Field work.

Travel the world. Meet interesting new people. Learn the language. Live the culture. Do things extremely few other people have. Share your experiences. Live the adventure.

That is one of my biggest concerns for my entire life: living the adventure. I want my life to mean something. I want to accomplish something. The stories that her professors have are the stories that I want for myself. I can start training for it now. I already have been.

Just now I have more direction... In a few different ways. Life is weird but good.