I had no idea just how tired I have been lately until I woke up this morning after a really solid block of sleep.
Personal: Today I did a bunch of laundry, cleaned my room, and babysat for the Momrine. All in all, not a terrible day. Aside from the worrying...
Gaming: I am thinking of becoming staff for a game I used to play. It all depends on if they like some of the ideas I've been pitching around the forums.
17 February 2007
Training Day 33
Wow. So... Friday sucked a whole lot. It wasn't a class day but the military training day was the worst organized mess I've ever seen. Doors were locked to rooms we were supposed to be testing in. We had all of two buses for the entire detachment. Something came up so we wound up sitting around at the end for two hours, which really screwed with my plans for the day. What more, I felt shaky all day and was sucking air during the PFT. I even fell asleep repeatedly during the little skills test.
Marathon: As part of the PFT I ran 3 miles in 23:28. That is horrific. My entire PFT dropped... fortunately, this one wasn't for score. It doesn't help that I was fatigued and dehydrated but, still, that's horrible. Tomorrow I get to run 10mi so I am hydrating today. It's time to pick myself up off the floor, buckle down, and do something to be proud of.
Personal: I am horribly confused right now. I can't tell what is right and wrong or strong and weak but I have people relying on me. This weekend I'm hoping to orient myself and move forward. There's too much at stake to do otherwise. At least I didn't suck too badly at land nav...
Marathon: As part of the PFT I ran 3 miles in 23:28. That is horrific. My entire PFT dropped... fortunately, this one wasn't for score. It doesn't help that I was fatigued and dehydrated but, still, that's horrible. Tomorrow I get to run 10mi so I am hydrating today. It's time to pick myself up off the floor, buckle down, and do something to be proud of.
Personal: I am horribly confused right now. I can't tell what is right and wrong or strong and weak but I have people relying on me. This weekend I'm hoping to orient myself and move forward. There's too much at stake to do otherwise. At least I didn't suck too badly at land nav...
Training Day 32
So I've been really bad about updating on time lately...
Language: Nothing spectacular or I'd have better recollection. I remember being extremely tired (even falling asleep on my feet) but not so much that I got nailed by a teacher or a NCO. The girl sitting next to me started acting all concerned, however. My entire class really is confusing... Maybe I'm nicer when I'm tired? Maybe I'm displaying some sort of weakness so they realize that I am, in fact, human and not a hard-ass all the time? Oh, there is my homework. Once again, my class leader decided to go and get more homework added to the heap. I had already finished the homework that was supposed to be done over the weekend.
Personal: Today was fun... and a little sad... all at once. Everything is very confusing.
Language: Nothing spectacular or I'd have better recollection. I remember being extremely tired (even falling asleep on my feet) but not so much that I got nailed by a teacher or a NCO. The girl sitting next to me started acting all concerned, however. My entire class really is confusing... Maybe I'm nicer when I'm tired? Maybe I'm displaying some sort of weakness so they realize that I am, in fact, human and not a hard-ass all the time? Oh, there is my homework. Once again, my class leader decided to go and get more homework added to the heap. I had already finished the homework that was supposed to be done over the weekend.
Personal: Today was fun... and a little sad... all at once. Everything is very confusing.
14 February 2007
Training Day 31
It's Valentine's Day! Woooo. Today was also field day, some sort of nonsense 'class' with my fireteam leader where he read off a sheet to us, and a random false fire alarm. Nearly ruined my evening but I ducked out during the evacuation.
Language: I managed to survive another day of class but the afternoon sucked. I think it's because our resident civilian brought in sugar cookies. With frosting. With sprinkles. Yeaaaah... Everyone was crashing. I just crash harder than most. Still, I persevered. Today's homework sucked. First we had some transcription assigned but the teachers realized it was last week's assignment so they made today a free study day. Then my class leader decided to assign the class six homework book exercises and three sentences for each of the three grammar patterns. On top of that, my section had an extra two paragraphs to write. I knocked it out rather quickly, to be honest, and was done in two hours. Another sign that my language skills are improving.
Personal: I can't wait for the weekend... There is just too much going on right now. I have a long weekend coming up and my roommate is leaving for a week. It sounds like a good opportunity to sort some stuff out.
Language: I managed to survive another day of class but the afternoon sucked. I think it's because our resident civilian brought in sugar cookies. With frosting. With sprinkles. Yeaaaah... Everyone was crashing. I just crash harder than most. Still, I persevered. Today's homework sucked. First we had some transcription assigned but the teachers realized it was last week's assignment so they made today a free study day. Then my class leader decided to assign the class six homework book exercises and three sentences for each of the three grammar patterns. On top of that, my section had an extra two paragraphs to write. I knocked it out rather quickly, to be honest, and was done in two hours. Another sign that my language skills are improving.
Personal: I can't wait for the weekend... There is just too much going on right now. I have a long weekend coming up and my roommate is leaving for a week. It sounds like a good opportunity to sort some stuff out.
13 February 2007
Training Day 30
And now we are up to date...
Language: I managed to stay awake through class today, which is always a boon, but I am having a hard time focusing still. I hate taking this medicine. Tomorrow I have a vocab quiz so I pounded some more vocab. I'm almost out of Before You Know It! lists... Now I need to figure out if I can make my own somehow. It may be worth it.
Medical: I saw the doctor today about my AutoPAP and why I'm still tired. They determined that I haven't been sleeping enough or on a regular enough schedule to burn off the sleep debt I've accumulated over the years. I also broached the subject of having my tonsils removed and the tech agreed that they are in the way. Then I confirmed with him that my tongue is overly large (based on observations of the oral surgeon who took out my wisdom teeth earlier and noticed that the sides of my tongue were gnawed on) and contributing to my OSA. For now, we just adjusted the max pressure on the device so that it won't pump so much air in my stomach, reminded me of the importance of a solid sleep schedule, gave me an update for my unit and class, and realized that I am due for a mask and hose replacement in a month. All together a productive trip.
Personal: Today was one of those days where I survived off of willpower alone. Honestly. It was a day where the only reason I didn't just curl up and hide somewhere is because I'm too stubborn to fail. I woke up with plenty of stuff rattling around in my head from the days before (like the deeply-rooted problems) then when I was taking out the trash in the head, someone's used-dip cup exploded. Then on the way to class my water bottle exploded in my bag so I showed up at class with a couple inches of standing water in my backpack and soaked books... At least things got better this evening. I have an idea know of where I am going and why.
Language: I managed to stay awake through class today, which is always a boon, but I am having a hard time focusing still. I hate taking this medicine. Tomorrow I have a vocab quiz so I pounded some more vocab. I'm almost out of Before You Know It! lists... Now I need to figure out if I can make my own somehow. It may be worth it.
Medical: I saw the doctor today about my AutoPAP and why I'm still tired. They determined that I haven't been sleeping enough or on a regular enough schedule to burn off the sleep debt I've accumulated over the years. I also broached the subject of having my tonsils removed and the tech agreed that they are in the way. Then I confirmed with him that my tongue is overly large (based on observations of the oral surgeon who took out my wisdom teeth earlier and noticed that the sides of my tongue were gnawed on) and contributing to my OSA. For now, we just adjusted the max pressure on the device so that it won't pump so much air in my stomach, reminded me of the importance of a solid sleep schedule, gave me an update for my unit and class, and realized that I am due for a mask and hose replacement in a month. All together a productive trip.
Personal: Today was one of those days where I survived off of willpower alone. Honestly. It was a day where the only reason I didn't just curl up and hide somewhere is because I'm too stubborn to fail. I woke up with plenty of stuff rattling around in my head from the days before (like the deeply-rooted problems) then when I was taking out the trash in the head, someone's used-dip cup exploded. Then on the way to class my water bottle exploded in my bag so I showed up at class with a couple inches of standing water in my backpack and soaked books... At least things got better this evening. I have an idea know of where I am going and why.
Training Day 29
I swear, everyone is sick. I think it is the stress... but what would the baby have to be stressed over? Her daycare is also prone to freaking out so, once again, no running. Fortunately, I'm doing a bit of PT on the side.
Language: Class... sucked... sleepy... My provigil isn't working like it's supposed to. That's distressing. I whipped out my homework real quick (six exercises) and studied some vocab. I think everyone was pretty much frazzled and it was just Monday.
Personal: Made crescent dogs (or pigs in a blanket) today. Yum! Then I ate way too much and felt pretty ill. This whole 'social life' thing is a pretty new idea for me and it's making me face old problems... Some of them are pretty deeply rooted but I know that, if I want any chance of a decent life, I need to face them and actually resolve them. I just don't know where to start.
Language: Class... sucked... sleepy... My provigil isn't working like it's supposed to. That's distressing. I whipped out my homework real quick (six exercises) and studied some vocab. I think everyone was pretty much frazzled and it was just Monday.
Personal: Made crescent dogs (or pigs in a blanket) today. Yum! Then I ate way too much and felt pretty ill. This whole 'social life' thing is a pretty new idea for me and it's making me face old problems... Some of them are pretty deeply rooted but I know that, if I want any chance of a decent life, I need to face them and actually resolve them. I just don't know where to start.
Training Day 28
Sunday... Sunday... Let me remember... It's been a crazy week. I swear. Which is why these updates are rather lackluster and very late.
Marathon: So I didn't race on Sunday... sometimes, life smacks you around a bit and you have to ask yourself where your priorities lie. Sometimes people need your help.
Personal: Fortunately, when you help people, they tend to be there for you.
Marathon: So I didn't race on Sunday... sometimes, life smacks you around a bit and you have to ask yourself where your priorities lie. Sometimes people need your help.
Personal: Fortunately, when you help people, they tend to be there for you.
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